REALITY..... More than a DIAGNOSIS... More than the NEWS.... more than a MISPOKEN WORD.... More than WAKING UNDER THE PORCH and not knowing how you got there.... More than JAIL TIME.... More then a DRUG OVERDOSE..... More than a PARENT in DeNIAL.....
REALITY is LIFE.... What is your reality???????
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Surgery is scheduled
I met with a new surgeon... I guess you can say... I got my second opinion...
Yay... I am glad I met with another surgeon... This guy is confident, insightful, sparing, and straight forward....
The first guy was good, straight forward... But I felt he had tunnel vision....steering me to what he just thought would get the job done.... He said...." we'll... We can do a lumpectomy... But if we don't get it all... We will just have to go back in for a mastectomy..."
This second surgeon's opinion is.... " let's do the lumpectomy... If we don't get it all... We do another simpler 4 hour procedure and continue to save the breast tissue....once you sweep the breat tissue away...it's gone.... and there is no turning back!"
So ...... I am scheduled for the lumpectomy.... I have pre-op day thursday and surgery early Friday.... Three days away..........
Yay... I am glad I met with another surgeon... This guy is confident, insightful, sparing, and straight forward....
The first guy was good, straight forward... But I felt he had tunnel vision....steering me to what he just thought would get the job done.... He said...." we'll... We can do a lumpectomy... But if we don't get it all... We will just have to go back in for a mastectomy..."
This second surgeon's opinion is.... " let's do the lumpectomy... If we don't get it all... We do another simpler 4 hour procedure and continue to save the breast tissue....once you sweep the breat tissue away...it's gone.... and there is no turning back!"
So ...... I am scheduled for the lumpectomy.... I have pre-op day thursday and surgery early Friday.... Three days away..........
Sunday, October 16, 2011
... Friends who help with information...
.... I was sad, sick, unknowing.... And then said to myself.... I am strong, feel healthier than I have ever felt.... Good endurance, full of energy.... Strongest fingernails ever.... So I have to head in to this ready to heal all.....
A good friend put me on to the mastectomy and reconstruction YouTubes.... At first I was horrified at all the blood, tissue, scars, and surgery... BUT THEN..... I kept scrolling and listening and absorbing.... I saw information packed videos, testimonials of survivors... Their thinking, their reasoning... And I feel there is no other choice but to stay head strong... Follow doctors orders for recovery and healing... And stay in a healing appreciative state....
A good friend put me on to the mastectomy and reconstruction YouTubes.... At first I was horrified at all the blood, tissue, scars, and surgery... BUT THEN..... I kept scrolling and listening and absorbing.... I saw information packed videos, testimonials of survivors... Their thinking, their reasoning... And I feel there is no other choice but to stay head strong... Follow doctors orders for recovery and healing... And stay in a healing appreciative state....
When you face a mountain...
... A couple of days away from talking with more surgeons... Thinking in my mind... How I was not in a real state of appreciation... I would say that I appreciate... But did I truly know and feel appreciation....
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Ready for a break
Trying hard to hang in there.... I believe I am strong and can get through this ... Be well.... And survive.... Be alive... God take care of us... Angel Rafael.... Take over and heal us .......
Saturday, October 8, 2011
Reality check 101
.... Why does it take being told you have cancer... To make you know you need to take time for yourself... To take care of yourself ........ it is time !
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